exactly a week ago i visited a dentist for a tooth extraction… my doctor was friendly, pretty and sexy… she used to be my schoolmate in high school… she was a senior and i was a freshman… funny how i used to imagine her being impregnated right after high school graduation… yeah, i once did… well, she was not really the wild type but she used to look so innocent and gullible… but now she’s a successful and beautiful dentist… i feel happy for her… in fact i am inspired by her… she now has her own family– a good-looking hubby and cute baby… congrats doc elaine!

It all started in our Development Communication class…

Mr. P. Orcullo: Kinsa’y taga-Toril diri?

Juan & JP: Si Oje! Sir, si Oje!

Mr. P. Orcullo: (pointing at me) O, ikaw! what is the difference between Toril and Davao? between rural and urban lifestyle?

Oje: Ha? Sir, dili man ko taga-Toril… nag-"board" lang man ko didto!

Classmates (in unison): Ha?! Layua ato oi! Nag-board ka pa!

everyone was laughing hysterically… and i thought, "kailan pa naging funny ang pagbo-board sa toril?… haaay, you all have no idea!" … just so you’d all know, we’re moving out, again, and in to another BOARDING HOUSE today … no worries, i’m already used to this setting since i have been traveling even before i came out to the world. i was conceived in digos city, then my parents moved to malita davao del sur. and i was born here in toril, davao city. i also experienced living in compostela valley… my father had to work in banaybanay, davao oriental so we lived there for about 2-3 years. he worked for the cojuangcos who were sought after by the npa after the marcos reign… delikado daw so we had to move to darong, sta. cruz sa place ng mama ko… nag-aral ako dun ng elementary… nag-high school sa toril… at nag-college sa downtown davao… then we moved to doña rosa, toril 2 years ago… at ngayon, sa kabilang sulok na naman ng toril kami lilipat… sanay na nga ako mag-hakot at mag-impake… haay, may sarili naman kaming bahay sa darong pero we have a problem with my drunkard lolo who lives next door… ‘pag naglalasing yun nagiging action-packed ang araw namin… may habulan, saksakan, bugbugan… gusto nya yatang patayin ang mga tao sa paligid nya… galit sya sa mundo, yun daw yun… hindi kami ang sinasaktan nya kundi mga kainuman at kapitbahay nya… in the end, sya rin naman ang nasusugatan… ilang beses na nga ‘yong tinaga ng itak ng kaaway niya… and we had to bring him to the hospital all the time… sometimes i’d wish he dies (pero binabawi ko rin ha! love ko rin yun kahit papano) so we could all go back to darong and live a peaceful life, as opposed to our nomadic state now… ang mahal magrenta ng bahay, and we always have to adjust to new neighbors… nakakainis talaga… kung bakit kasi hindi ako nananalo sa lotto para makabili naman kami ng malaking bahay sa tuktok ng samal island… kung sabagay, hindi pa ako tumataya… hay, makataya na nga!

almost a week ago, a letter arrived in our office from the san miguel brewery in our barangay… it was addressed to our barangay chair… it said that they will be inviting 28 youth leaders from our community to participate in a leadership cum team building activity at outland adventure, a ropes course facility in davao… as a sangguniang kabataan chair, i felt excited upon hearing the news… i thought this was a good chance for me to reach out to the young members in our barrio… this will be on august 5… i hope that it will be a sunny saturday so we could all enjoy! sa mga sk councilors ko na may friendster, humanda na kayo! this will be an ‘extra challenge’ for us! in advance, i’d like to thank the good-hearted san miguel admin for this wonderful opportunity! please visit www.outlandadventure.org for more info!

i haven’t been feeling well the whole day because of lack of sleep… i dozed off at about 2:30 am kanina… when i woke up, my head was really aching…

guess who i had been thinking about since 9pm yesterday… well, i bet u all don’t know him… i don’t understand why but i’ve been thinking about wilbert lately… so who’s he?… he was my suitor back when i was a freshman in college… that time he was a criminology student at u.m., can’t remember what year level… well, i don’t miss him… i don’t… yes, i actually don’t… but why am i still thinking about him?! i’m even sure i’m not in love with him… never… ever! ano ngayon kung baby-face(d) sya, maputi, makinis, matangkad, neat, at mapula ang lips… pero sobrang mahinhin naman… talagang-talaga! na para bang bading?! naka-cross legged pag nakaupo at palaging may clean, white hanky… syempre hindi ko sure kung talagang bading yun, kasi nga nawalan kami ng communication after ko na-basted… haay…

but u know what, at one point i thought i was gonna break my promise to my mom na i will never have a boyfriend until i finish my college education… muntikan na kasi akong napasagot nun… pero kinaya ko naman… di ako nagpadala… may mga ibang lumapit, pero di ko na pinansin…

so ano to? feeling ko ba na sinayang ko ang pagkakataon dahil ngayong tapos na ako sa college eh loveless pa rin ako? ganun ba yun? o baka sobra lang akong naiinggit sa mga romantic TV dramas and movies (my girl, secret garden, notting hill, peach girl, etc.) na napapanuod ko araw-araw kaya ako nagda-drama ng ganito? yun na nga siguro… my goodness, i don’t wanna oblige myself and look for a partner just because i look pathetic walking or eating or watching movies ALONE…

my cousin allen just ‘text-ed’ me to find a bf just so i would get inspired to work my butt off and lose weight ’cause i’m big as a couch!… and to add insult to injury, a midwife even commented that i look like an impregnated pig… okay, i’m crying now!